im SURE

im really sure i have adhd now. please i need a diagnosis!!!

greek gods summary school notes

Zeus - shield, eagle, lightning

ares - bad war

athene - "good" war

dionysus - wine, wilderness

hephaistosus - lightning making, blacksmith

hermes - sellers, wings

poseidon - sea ocean n stuff

artemida - hunting, forest

hades - keys

neurodivergent quiz

everything credit to willatastic09 twitter

1. When did you learn that you're neurodivergent?

i think about a year ago? tho i thought about it much earlier i didnt analise it deeply.

2. Does your family or friends know that you're neurodivergent?

no, but hopefully ìll be diagnosed soon so they gon know.

3. Do you have difficulty processing information sometimes you tap out and come back?

often.

4. Do people not take you seriously when you're explaining yourself?

every time. seriously every time

5. Do people think you're rude when you're trying to not talk?

i dont think so

6. Do people often misunderstand you and think you are selfish?

rarely

7. Do you sometimes feel like you are very smart but unable to convey information like other people?

all the time

8. Do you sometimes feel that you don't wanna open up about your neurodivergence because you don't want it to be an excuse?

yeah!!!!!

9. Do you have thoughts in your thoughts while you're thinking about something else?

all the time

10. Are you "multiple videos playing in the background but has nothing to do with your task" person or the "one thing at a time" person?

the first one. surely.

11. Do you remind yourself to do a task every single day but end up not doing it and you feel guilty but your brain doesn't allow you to do it?

gosh yes.

12. Do people mistake your messiness as laziness?

yup

13. Do people think you're lazy and slow?

big yup

14. Do people think you're a party pooper or bring bad energy to a conversation?

nah

15. Do you have a conversation with someone while thinking about 50 other things at the same time?

all the timeeeeee

16. When did you think to yourself that you were "different"?

long time ago. then i tried to force myself to being "normal", then back to weird

17. Do simple tasks like making your bed or brushing your teeth become so forgettable to you?

YEAH

18. Do you sometimes blurt things out without thinking because you need to convey it before you forget?

not that often but yup

19. Do you go for therapy or consultation sessions?

i do, but mostly for depression

20. Do you consider yourself at an advantage because of your neurodivergence?

emmm not being able to explain neurodiversity to others is annoying. and living with nts is annoying.

21. Do you feel that you have outstanding ideas?

ye

22. Do you feel that you are able to retain so much information that you can't organize them?

yup

23. Do you ever remind yourself to not be too hard on yourself every single day?

often

24. Do you ever find yourself connecting to ideas and information that had people never thought of to be related?

often

25. Do you find yourself able to solve "trick images" in a very short time?

i dont really know

26. Do you ever compare yourself to perfectionists because people expect you to be like them?

yeah kinda

27. Do you function in a mess or in an organized space?

bruh my bedroom floor is barely visible rn

28. Do you need music playing everywhere you go?

most of the time yes

29. Do you have any other vice to get yourself stimulated?

i dont know

30. Do you prefer loud places compared to complete silence?

team silence

31. Do you prefer elevators or escalators?

now escalators. as a kid i was scared of em

32. Do you feel like people are able to see your thoughts even though they're not even looking at you?

yes!

33. Is your neurodivergence why you tend to have anxiety or depression?

i dont think so but it could worsen it

34. Do you prefer hot-pressed (smooth) or cold-pressed (textured) paper? Why?

textured cause my pen likes to slip on smooth paper and also the ink is everywhere

35. Are you able to listen to music, while watching TV while being able to complete your task?

id do that on a daily basis but will i complete a task? i dont think so

36. Do you feel the need to apologize even though the person or the situation doesn't require you to?

yup

37. Do you ever just find something interesting and constantly research about it every day?

yes but it changes every two days

38. Do you ever feel that your neurodivergence is a gift?

i... dont think so

39. Do you overcalculate things even when you don't need to?

sometimes

40. Do you ever get ready a few hours before something just in case you don't forget anything?

usually nope because im doing a thousand other things and i cant waste time

41. Do you find it hard to have relationships because you don't really know how to talk to people well enough?

i just dont feel connected to anyone that much.

42. Do you tend to not know if someone is joking or not while talking to you?

it happens sometimes

43. Do you ever zone out during something and use it to your own advantage?

i.. guess...???

44. Do you love reading ingredients and spend your hours reading labels at the stores?

ive read every product ingredient list in my house. so i guess

45. Do you ever tell your brain that you love it?

no ://

first time on a canoe

this post is about my school trip.

we went canoeing! it was annoying, uncomfortable, exhausting and really long, but definetly not boring. actually, it was fun!!! water was rly cold. canoes were plastic... the river was changing every 3 seconds. it might sound like i didnt like it, but I HONESTLY DID. that was a really enjoyable trip. im glad i went there. later we baked marshmallows on the campfire and made smores;  delicious. i played a few songs on my ukulele, but noone seemed to care rly, so i was sad. later i played in the bus so people seemed actually a bit interested and it made my day! i got to know a few people closer. yay!!!

adhd

i think my therapist is suspecting i have adhd

maybe i could get a diagnosis??? who knows!! shes going to be contacting me this week to check the symptoms. yeah maybe i'll finally know who i am! pleasee come on. i wanna know

whaaaat

dream

i was in a bakery with my mum. 

i was in a street where i talked to a girl.

i had a document for camp.

i played minecraft in real life with some dancers. they were too good at it (actually, cheating) so i lost every time. that room we played in looked like old kids'bedroom in grandmas house but the furniture was different. 

mum suggested going to the forest and i agreed but forgot about it lol.

then also i catched c0vid ahahaha, glad it was a dream

dream about camp

this is my dream

we went to the castle for some reason and F. told us it was a lot of money to get there. we sat in 2 groups, 2 tables and were supposed to talk abt something.

some family wanted to know if their escape way is working, they even had an emergency exit coz they were scared.

i gave big colorful ice cream to a couple of people - they were there to celebrate mental health awareness day or something. the chocolate sauce was dripping down so fast and falling to the floor.

someone of the scared family was trans and their mother accepted them but the rest of the family didn't. it was in some basement lol. reminded me of that one in Lamnaa castle mixed with some video game.

almost everything happened during camp.

dream 2

i was in a body of a normal white straight girl who had a bf. he wanted to break up coz 'i didnt spend enough time with him' when in fact i was busy doing family stuff. then we went somewhere and i was with Alex and L. it started being so windy and stormy. we tried to survive it and wow we did lmao. i was carrying a pot and they some other things. the storm stopped and the ŕest of the group came to us (like 2 ppl only but ok) and one of em just finished a homemade pride flag which was amazing but i didnt know what pride flag it wasXDDDD

i loved her,,, idk why. she was just making me feel worse all the time and i still liked her more and more. why??? 

im glad its over but im confused now because there are still a bit of feelings in me. thats so annoying!!@@@ can i stop??? cmon please

okay so we're doing this

Omg IM FINALLY CONFIDENT (almost)

the intergarting park game! it was wonderful. i actually TALKED TO PEOPLE. i seriously cant believe it. someone said today "its a school for nerds" gahaha i loved that because yeah it definetly is. i lOVE THIS SCHOOL SO FUCKING---- 

my team (A) was:

Matt

Olivia

Simon (my class)

Julie (my class)

and me.

i got to know a few junior year students. amazing experience. they were the nicest to talk to :•) also alexis from our class 🥺🥺 shes amazing. i want to get to know her more.

im so glad i went to this school.

thank u. 

freshman year

classes started today. my first schoolday in high. its going to be amazing. yeah maybe except for maths. but overall its wonderful. im grateful.