genshin

i started playing finally

i really like it . like a lot

at first i thought i might be a venti kin but i dont think so. he reminds me of kel from omori. and thats awesome 

i love diluc 

im really scared of things, im scared of who ill become one day

im afraid my escapism will kill me one day. 

and itll be my fault, kinda.

comin out to my brother???soon???

im starting to trust my brother a lil bit more so maybe i will come out to him?????? maybe?????? 

i hope itll go well. idi when i will do it. hoping for the best. who am i describing this to anyways? only for myself. so i can joke around and stuff lol like say amogus memes

UPDATE: 27DEC 2021

i came out to him like 2 weeks ago!!!!!! it went veeery well 

vent

ngl i wanna die right now. i wanna rip everythinv from my body. chop my hair off. i dont want to feel this pain anymore i really wanna off myself jesus christ. its gonna be hard to fall asleep, but i have to be awake tmrw to study. i worry that one day i'll just break and never get up again.

im worried that it could happen if i dont go to sleep right now. im so worried. im so anxious. im crying. i want to cry more. i want to cry until i loose all my water. 

i cant do this anymore