im scared it wont ever get better. and im wasting my whole life. this was supposed to be the best time of my life like in the movies but i cant even be myself. i dont know if i will ever be able to transition. im hopeless. im still mad at one of my friends. and im so lonely this summer break. i spend every day sitting in my room and its so hot inside i dont even want to go out by myself. it got so bad i considered calling up the sucide hotline last night.why do things have to be this way?
i need to get really drunk and cry. i dont smoke but this stuff is looking really encouraging these days.
