i feel weird about it. i was just here last week to meet my friends but they mostly didnt give a fuck that i got on a 6 hour train for them. i probably shouldve stayed home with my boyfriend and cleaned up and stuff. at least ive worked a lot on my homework on the train. now i have nothing to do since professors mostly dont assign work for christmas. i guess besides like 4 projects but i wont be doing that on the train.
things are kind of better now. i got accepted into my dream university and am living with my boyfriend. i should be the happiest guy alive and, dont get me wrong i am happy with how things are, but its hard to be fully happy when i cant be myself around my family. i feel weird at home, as if someone was watching and judging me constantly. they will never be happy for me about my relationship and my identity. i wish someone who understood me was reading this.
im also gonna be sick. i kind of already am. idk if its a cold or something worse but im glad its now and not earlier this month.
bye
