Saturday, 29 November 2025

my friends are coming over

10:20 making breakfast
10:55 coffee
11:20 making the bed 
11:45 unloading the dishwasher 
11:55 loading
12:00 cleaning the kitchen
12:10 dishes 
12:25 hanging out
12:40 cleaning
12:50 hanging out 
13:25 toilet break
13:40 cleaning vaccuuming 
14:25 baking part 1
15:00 lunch
15:20 cleaning
15:35 cooking, mopping the floor
and then more cleaning and baking
i left half of my dough to bake tmrw bc it didnt rise properly at first
then my friends came over and we had a great time they were here for more than 10 hours 🔥 thats crazy 
i think it means they like me 
i cant overthink it too much or ill go insane@!!
they seem to think im super nonchalant and dont care about anything ?
but sometimes i care too much
also i sometimes worry im selfish 
bc sometimes they talk about boring stuff and i only wait for my turn to talk sometimes i dont even listen
i dont feel too good about it and i try to catch myself thinking like this so i can stop
i love my boyfie so much he cares about me and helps me with many things 
he makes me so happy 
his eyes are so big
he is so tall and strong 
his nose is perfect to me
his interests and hobbies are really cool and he has a good taste in music
his hair is so soft and suits him well




Friday, 28 November 2025

Tuesday, 18 November 2025

things i enjoy

someone on tiktok said you should do stuff you enjoy even if you have to force yourself bc it will help you get out of depressive feelings

playing videogames like mc, but i mostly like playing with someone and not alone 
skating / ice skating
singing / karaoke
crochet or hand sewing

Monday, 17 November 2025

my least favorite class is dismissed😈


artist akiko ikeda (?)


i just came back home and on my way i bought my bf an advent calendar he told me he liked :3

10:15 poop
10:30 lunch
10:55 tea 
i ate dinner and went to my next class 
13:45 talked with my colleague who was smoking outside the uni building
13:50 public transport
14:05 walking back home. im so hungry already
14:15 poop
14:25 heating up food 
14:35 eating 
15:05 unloading the dishwasher 
15:15 snack and tea
15:30 putting stuff away
15:35 brushing my teeth
15:40 nap 🦝
16:15 hanging out with bf
16:45 poop
17:00 stupid shit with my bf 
18:15 homework
18:40 im getting ready to go to the movies so i prolly wont be updating now

update this movie was terrible i was so stressed watching it i wanted to puke it was disgusting i lwkey wish i didnt go 

Monday, 10 November 2025

i feel lonely

i feel lonely and sad i need some support 
i domt feel like myself bc my parents think im someone else and it makes me feel upset 
i just want to go home not to a place but to a feeling a sense of belonging and safety

Tuesday, 4 November 2025

its wednesday

its 7.33 and im just now leaving for class
im hope im not late for my public transport
after class my stomach hurt really really bad 
now its 14.15, im going to another class 

hi its noon

spend my day with me! i just came back from morning class and went to the pharmacy too 

12:00 -12:05 changing clothes bc i had sports practice 
12:05-12:15 making the bed 
12:15 - 12:30 cleaning up + dishes 
12:30 cooking
12:50 eating + youtube, tiktok
13:20 vaccuuming and removing stains from the floor 
14:00 snack
14:25 bathroom break
14:35 mopping the floor 
15:00 break 
15:20 counting how much money i owe
16:00 vaccuming and mopping again 
16:25 laying down 
16:40 dinner 
17:05 changing clothes etc etc
17.15 public transport 
17:40 smoke break with colleagues 
17:45 class
19:15 talking with friends 
19:25 public transport back home
19:45 groceries
20:05 changing clothes, hanging out with bf a bit, wrote in the gratitude journal post
20:45 im craving something salty so im having a snack
later i hung out with myboyfriend and rested
22:20 shower 
23:10 im going to sleep! bye

Saturday, 1 November 2025

gratitude journal, november

im grateful i finished my homework today and i have tmrw off
im grateful i got to meet my friend today
im grateful that im going back and meeting my bf tmrw
im grateful my oomf is alive
im grateful my mom went to the store to grab some snacks for me and my friend 
im grateful my train doesnt leave till afternoon tmrw so i can sleep longer
im grateful my parents gave me my allowance 
im grateful my allowance is more than enough 
im grateful my boyfriend showed me his favorite videogame (its so cool)
im grateful i lost a lot of weight and i look better now 
im grateful my bf cuts my hair exactly how i like it
im grateful i lost weight without developing an eating disorder again
im grateful i dont have any cavities atm
im grateful my nose is cleared and i dont have a headache
im grateful i could do some push ups yesterday and today
im grateful my wisdom tooth extractions healed well
im grateful noone knows about this blog 
im grateful my bed is soft and clean
im grateful i got invited to a halloween party
im grateful i dont have a double chin anymore
im grateful im sitting alone on the train right now 
im grateful i remembered to bring my headphones 
im grateful i fit on the bus
im grateful i didnt have class in the morning
im grateful ive got a toaster
im grateful i had time and energy to clean the floors today
im grateful my friends walked me to the bus
im grateful my friend wants to meet with me in my hometown
im grateful i will never be pregnant 
im grateful my head doesnt hurt today
im grateful i got more used to many sounds over time 
im grateful i could go to english classes when i was a kid
im grateful i dont have many classes on tuesdays 
im grateful that i can sleep with my boyfriend every night 
im grateful for my favorite blanket 
im grateful i can afford medication
im grateful my class tmrw is cancelled
im grateful my bf borrowed me his lamp because it makes the room look cozy
im grateful for my radio and record player 
im grateful for my soft duvet
im grateful for my favorite pillow 
im grateful for my blog
im grateful i found a face wash that works well
im grateful i can eat my favorite breakfast every day 
im grateful i have options about my dental care 
im grateful that i noticed the keys in my pocket today
im grateful that i was on time for my train
im grateful that there was a bus i could go home in 
im grateful a stranger was nice to me and gendered me correctly
im grateful my friends came to see me
im grateful my boyfriend has a good friend hes excited to meet every time
im grateful my friend said the things i go through must be hard because i lowkey needed to hear that 
im grateful i have a good relationship with my boyfriend 
im grateful my parents bought food for me
im grateful this bug didnt bite me 
im grateful i can watch asmr today
im grateful my friend brought me food
im grateful my brother is doing well even though we dont see each other that much
im grateful for the bread i ate today because it was really good
im grateful the toilet was open on the train
im grateful i overcame my fear of braces
im grateful the party outside is not that loud today 
im grateful for my cutting mat
im grateful for my lizard even though hes not alive anymore 
im grateful for my favorite chair 
im grateful for todays dinner
im grateful for my straight eyebrows
im grateful for my working hands 
im grateful i had something to eat this morning
im grateful my boyfriend gave me something to eat in class 
im grateful the questions were easy for me on the test today
im grateful my teacher was so supportive of me 
im grateful my boyfriend is so supportive
im grateful my colleague said i can talk to her if anythings wrong it was so nice of her
im grateful a colleague borrowed me his cigarette 
im grateful my boyfriends dog is well
im grateful my boyfriend distracts me from my own thoughts 
im grateful i talked with my colleague today
im grateful my least favorite class is dismissed
im grateful i had money to buy an advent calendar for my boyfriend
im grateful i dont have to cook food because i have leftovers 
im grateful my dad called me 
im grateful for my boyfriend
im grateful for the time i spent with my boyfriend today
im grateful for the delicious dinner my boyfriend made me 
im grateful for being only slightly injured from falling down on ice
im grateful for my boyfriends support
im grateful for my boyfriends new friends they make him happy 
im grateful for the pants i borrow from my boyfriend 
im grateful my friends stayed over and they were here so long
im grateful my friends offered to help clean up
im grateful my friends brought some food and a game
im grateful my friends laughed with me and not at me
im grateful my friends liked the music i played 
im grateful we had such a great time playing games
im grateful my boyfriend helps me so much
im grateful i was able to fix my dough 
im grateful my friends were grateful for the stuff i cooked and prepared 
im grateful my friends are so understanding
im grateful my boyfriend can be himself at school and hes brave enough to fight for it 
im grateful my friend was happy when we played videogames with her on her birthday
im grateful for whatever my boyfriend bought me for christmas yesterday and he wont tell me !! 
im grateful i was able to buy some gifts for my family
im grateful for my new water bottle