hiiii

today i went to drop off my bf at the train station then i made myself breakfast

i was still hungry so i heated up two more pieces of bread and ate them with salmon 😋

at 12:25 i called to book a doctors appointment and brushed my teeth

then i ate some blueberries but most ofthem were bitter and it kind of ruined the vibe for me

now its midnight and im not feeling good my tummy hurts and other stuff 

i have a really embarrassing symptom im worried i might have to go to the doctor about

i also miss my boyfriend so so much already and i have to sleep without him i want to cry 

i dont want to be sick anymore 

i hope that test that i did finds something easily curable 

im gonna be so sad if its crohns but im gonna be heartbroken if its nothing because i cant live like this without treatment anymore i can feel that somethings very wrong

i know it could potentially be a tumor too but i doubt it, except for sometimes when i get anxious. i dont know what i would do if i had cancer