imagine how tired i am

he's tired of me feeling bad all the time. im fucking tired too. i dont want to argue about this especially over text but it made me a bit mad. i KNOW hes tired but why would he say that? i feel hurt and upset. 

and i cried and he doesnt even know. im scared he'll leave me because im insufferable like that. other people left me for that. i love him and he understands me the most in the world but sometimes he acts like he doesnt care if im gonna cry or feel like theres a void inside my chest. not that he would make me feel these things, but wouldnt say anything if they're hapoening if that makes sense. but in real life i know he would hug me. i feel like hes two different people on the phone and irl. and irl hes much more compassionate and nice. and also more annoying(i love you). 

i feel like i should sign up for therapy. 

i also feel like hes autistic and cant feel empathy the way other people do.