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i feel mad and frustrated when i hear my father and brother talking about science. i feel like im stupid and broken beacuse i will never understand it. im not even interesed in it, i just hate it because i'll never be as smart. i know it sounds like stupid shit but sometimes i want to break something or maybe my own head open when i hear them talking. 

i feel hurt because my brother never put together the lego i bought him for christmas 2 years ago and now the box is sitting in my room. also he's kind of slowly becoming the worst person i know. i dont hate him. i think i care about him but most of the time i just cant even listen to him. he always has to be right about everything, he acts entitled and became so selfish and spoiled. im worried hes going to turn out similar my dad. 

im also hurt that my boyfriend never wears the ring i got him like 2 years ago. 

i've never ever seen him wear it. at first he blamed it on the weather and how his fingers get swollen and he doesnt wear rings. then i forgot about it for a while but now he stopped wearing any rings at all. and i get it, i rarely wear mine too but it would change everything if he just wore it out like a couple times and he never does. i get it too that his style changed a bit overtime and it doesnt go with his clothes that well anymore but why wouldnt he wear it at the beginning?:( i think about it more than i should. im afraid it was very ugly :( but i tried

i didnt want to buy a very expensive one since the one he gave me was cheap and i didnt want him to feel bad, but now idk if i should regret it? maybe it is ugly:( i dont even know where he keeps it and im scared to ask bc if its that bad he might tell me. hes not scared of talking about those things. hes very blunt and straight to the point.