:(

i sometimes feel so alone like noone understands me. and thats probably true. esp the struggles im dealing withregarding my autism and adhd together and also combined with my digestive issues. why cant i be normal? i hate it 

i sometimes hate myself for it and sometimes i hate that noone understands what im going through. i cant fix some of my behavior,ive been like this since forever. maybe if i got adhd medication i would finally function normally. im so tired i have to sleep but i cant. my chest hurts a little bit. my nose is a little runny. i feel my sinuses in my skull. i can feel my skull as a whole and the pressure building up in it. my abdomen hurts too. 

i feel so alone. i know i shouldnt 

i feel guilty for feeling alone bc i have people by my side but there are times i dont feel them on my side. sometimes i need support and i dont get it.

i shouldnt be upset over this. im not, that much, i just wanna say i feel kinda alone right now. 

everyones asleep and i should be too. 

also what do you do if a relationship is no longer exciting for the other person 

how do you deal with that