i got a family gathering tmrw

and i really dont wanna go. i keep getting these weird pains lately in different parts of my body

my head hurts in a weird specific way and my hip pops out sometimes. qnd my lower back is killing me i rarely have time to sit down by myself and think lately but it might be for the best. every time i sit alone for long enough i start to feel unwell and overthink stuff. 

the clouds are moving so fast it looks strange 

i think its the full moon 

i checked and it was spsd to be yesterday or sumn 

im still itchy

we went oit to eat today with my family

meh

i dont like my dad hes so rude to people

it makes me sick 

i wish he wasnt my father sometimes 

im exhaust3d so im going to sleep

im itchy

i just taped off my fingers so i dont bite them off  but this tape is literal shit and its coming off already ive been under so much stress lately i barely handle it. i keep laughing abt how im gonna lose all my hair by the time im in college 

i had a serious mental breakdown yesterday

also my back hurts like crazy and my skin is itchy

im thinking about my bf and his soft hair and how hes so gentle and warm and makes me feel loved and he has really beautiful eyes and hes just so much cooler than me